Through nearly losing his mind, to dying. Trapped in his own subconscious watching the dreams play out again and again for half a year before waking up to his world almost gone - no Tim, no Daisy, Martin MIA, and Elias in prison. The uncertainty, the isolation. Losing his humanity no matter how tightly he tried to grasp it.
Feeling it slip through his fingers each statement he forced, monster and human alike.
Desperately trying to keep his actions secret.
The billowing panic when he realized they all knew what he'd been doing.
His fingers twitch at his sides. The dark tears dripping like sludge down his front, to the floor, his trousers, staining them.
Martin laughing and dispelling any idea of them getting out. The thought that maybe there isn't anything else keeping him alive; the fear of the End still as strong as it was before he died. The sheer confusion and terror when everyone ran into the tunnels and were set upon by multiple enemies.
The Panopticon. It had called to him as soon as he was within sight of it the first time.
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Through nearly losing his mind, to dying. Trapped in his own subconscious watching the dreams play out again and again for half a year before waking up to his world almost gone - no Tim, no Daisy, Martin MIA, and Elias in prison. The uncertainty, the isolation. Losing his humanity no matter how tightly he tried to grasp it.
Feeling it slip through his fingers each statement he forced, monster and human alike.
Desperately trying to keep his actions secret.
The billowing panic when he realized they all knew what he'd been doing.
His fingers twitch at his sides. The dark tears dripping like sludge down his front, to the floor, his trousers, staining them.
Martin laughing and dispelling any idea of them getting out. The thought that maybe there isn't anything else keeping him alive; the fear of the End still as strong as it was before he died. The sheer confusion and terror when everyone ran into the tunnels and were set upon by multiple enemies.
The Panopticon. It had called to him as soon as he was within sight of it the first time.
He feels it calling to him even now. ]