[ the self-sacrificing, self-loathing part of Martin says that Jon shouldn't be; he shouldn't have to deal with this, shouldn't have to pick up Martin's pieces. or at least hold them together. but Martin can't bring himself to say anything about it or act upon the thought, except to feel shame that Jon is seeing him as this kind of mess, again, and bury hid face further into Jon's shoulder. ]
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[ the self-sacrificing, self-loathing part of Martin says that Jon shouldn't be; he shouldn't have to deal with this, shouldn't have to pick up Martin's pieces. or at least hold them together. but Martin can't bring himself to say anything about it or act upon the thought, except to feel shame that Jon is seeing him as this kind of mess, again, and bury hid face further into Jon's shoulder. ]
I don't know what to do now.