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YET ANOTHER PSL AU POST BECAUSE WE ARE MONSTERS.

LITERALLY.

Kinda the premise.

Don't peek in my head.

I didn't have to.

Th-then. Then fine. So I want it. B-but it's stupid.

It isn't. It isn't at all.

We've only just started, and it's the only good relationship I've ever had, so what if it doesn't work out? What if it doesn't end up like you two? What if I screw everything up somehow? I could do so many things wrong!

So could he.

But. I have it on very good authority he's trying to make a proper go of things himself.

[resolutely:] He could never.

He's trying.

No, I mean- He could never screw up.

You say that...

[You know what, he's not going to finish that thought. That way leads to sowing seeds of doubt and he doesn't want to do that to their younger selves.]

I know he'll do right by you.

[Martin turns to look back at Jon with the most loving, soppy expression.]

He already does.

...It's likely going to get hard for him after he's done. So...

Probably don't have to say it, but stick by him.

...No, you don't have to say.

[he falls into a pained silence.]

I won't leave him unless he gets sick of me and swats me away with his cane.

He'll need you. A lot more than he probably thinks right now.

He's lucky he has you.

...Mmm.

I hate...that this is the only way he can be safe. I'd do...just about anything to...

Edited 2020-12-30 04:17 (UTC)

...I know. But it's the only way for him.

We'll all just. Have to adjust. ...I've been talking to contractors about retrofitting the house, but I can't afford it- We'll have to jerry rig something.